first stage of sadness : denial

i was just watching a movie titled, " The Bucket List " and then one of them told to the other one "You are in the stage one."

"What stage one you mean?"

"The first stage of denial."

"Denial, anger, bargaining, dpression and acceptance. Denial."

" Yeah."

And now I am in that stage. The first stage of sadness a.k.a the first stage of grief. But really, it's not cause i lost something but because I'm denying love.

I am denying the love that i have and iit is a long way to the fifth stage, acceptance. i am trying so hard to avoid that stage.

I am avoiding to accept that love.