Missing not lost.
But lost of a person's touch.lost of a person's kiss.lost of a person's love.
I kinda missing it somehow.
It took so long for me to find love.
Though I wrote all of this lovey dovey things.
Just what I wrote.
I'm too far to join the clan.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
9/12
Today is anti corruption day.
Their spirit is flaming like the eternal flane.
Even the rain couldn't stop them.
That is our spirit to kick the corruption ass till they flew away from the cabinets.
A becak's driver, otto mayor from salatiga walked 60km since 2.00 am till now just to show how he really want a life without corruption!
His sweat made his tshirt wet,but the spirit isn't wet at all.he keep walking till now.
That is what we should learn from.his spirit!it's flaming!can't you see it?we need the spirit !not ony brain without spirit!
Burn the spirit!!!!
Their spirit is flaming like the eternal flane.
Even the rain couldn't stop them.
That is our spirit to kick the corruption ass till they flew away from the cabinets.
A becak's driver, otto mayor from salatiga walked 60km since 2.00 am till now just to show how he really want a life without corruption!
His sweat made his tshirt wet,but the spirit isn't wet at all.he keep walking till now.
That is what we should learn from.his spirit!it's flaming!can't you see it?we need the spirit !not ony brain without spirit!
Burn the spirit!!!!
call me out of my mind.
I'm really out of my mind.
Maybe sooner or later I'll be the Isabella Swan that is an adrenaline junkies and jumped from the cliff.but there will be no Jacob Black who will drag me out of the water.cause I have no one to rescue me.I'm only of those ordinary girls who think they got the worst life from all.I'm only one of those girls who seek love but never been able to find one.
Or,call it we found it.we thought we found it but we didn't .we thought it will be as beautifull as those love story in love songs.but the real love is painful.
That's what Shakespeare tried to tell us. Even the well-known couple, Romeo and Juliet died for nothing. Love is painful.but we somehow like it,even addicted to it.
Just like those 'drugs'. It is painful and harmful. But if we knew them,we'll be dragged and addicted to it.and I'm addicted to the aadditive love.it's just,I don't have someone to love.even the one who steal my kiss in my dream can't be found. the possibility is 2 to 1500. How? Cause he is Taylor Lautner. And he's in holliwood and hi,I'm in jakarta thousand miles away.call me out of my mind for loving him.but how can I not loved him if he was the boy who kiss me so gentle and so sweet in my dream but felt so so so so real?!
Me myself can feel the texture of his lips.can feel the wetness of his lips and can even reply his kiss.so warm and make me melt every time I think of him.I can't even feel my legs and have to move it to make sure it is there.
I'm really out of my mind to think that I could drag that kiss to the reality world.
Cause the magic for love exist in love story and love songs ONLY.
How can I make it real if the possibilities is 2 to 1500? The. Number maybe not fammiliar for every possibilities.but I'm trying not to make my heart tore apart more than knowing I have no one to love.
I really am out of rational mind to think I'll take him to my arms and making the kissing things real.but I hope the 2 will give me a chance.cause I don't know who I should love.they said love is blind,but bi said,not loving somebody is making you yourself blind you can't see anything when the emptiness strike you.
No matter how I try to put those big smile whenb looking at those descendant of Adam, I can't lie to myself telling I'm going to be loved and loved.
Cause I am so far from it. Too far to join the lovey dovey clan.
Maybe sooner or later I'll be the Isabella Swan that is an adrenaline junkies and jumped from the cliff.but there will be no Jacob Black who will drag me out of the water.cause I have no one to rescue me.I'm only of those ordinary girls who think they got the worst life from all.I'm only one of those girls who seek love but never been able to find one.
Or,call it we found it.we thought we found it but we didn't .we thought it will be as beautifull as those love story in love songs.but the real love is painful.
That's what Shakespeare tried to tell us. Even the well-known couple, Romeo and Juliet died for nothing. Love is painful.but we somehow like it,even addicted to it.
Just like those 'drugs'. It is painful and harmful. But if we knew them,we'll be dragged and addicted to it.and I'm addicted to the aadditive love.it's just,I don't have someone to love.even the one who steal my kiss in my dream can't be found. the possibility is 2 to 1500. How? Cause he is Taylor Lautner. And he's in holliwood and hi,I'm in jakarta thousand miles away.call me out of my mind for loving him.but how can I not loved him if he was the boy who kiss me so gentle and so sweet in my dream but felt so so so so real?!
Me myself can feel the texture of his lips.can feel the wetness of his lips and can even reply his kiss.so warm and make me melt every time I think of him.I can't even feel my legs and have to move it to make sure it is there.
I'm really out of my mind to think that I could drag that kiss to the reality world.
Cause the magic for love exist in love story and love songs ONLY.
How can I make it real if the possibilities is 2 to 1500? The. Number maybe not fammiliar for every possibilities.but I'm trying not to make my heart tore apart more than knowing I have no one to love.
I really am out of rational mind to think I'll take him to my arms and making the kissing things real.but I hope the 2 will give me a chance.cause I don't know who I should love.they said love is blind,but bi said,not loving somebody is making you yourself blind you can't see anything when the emptiness strike you.
No matter how I try to put those big smile whenb looking at those descendant of Adam, I can't lie to myself telling I'm going to be loved and loved.
Cause I am so far from it. Too far to join the lovey dovey clan.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
fifteen.
Geeez. I'm in love with Swift's song.fifteen.as I am fifteen now,my besties told me to listen to this ong.it's so us she saidz. I listen to it and I looked at the lyris and, omigod.this is so me and I really hope I'm not Abigail.
It's amazing how she pur it into song.she mean it and everything she sang in that song refers to fifteen girls like me.how we believe everyone who tell us they love us.how we waited for a senior to wink at us and tell us lots of things.and how first kiss (despite the fact I never ever kissed) makes our head spin and dancing in our room.also,how we never know what the bigger things we can do rather than hooking someone from the football or basketball team.it is so real I almost cry!!
I'm enjoying my fifteen year.ooops sorry.still fourteen.waiting for 27th december to come and give me aging day.sooner or later I'll be one of those women who queue for an anti-aging product that cost a world.with lots of advantage blablabla. Will be busy going to beauty salon to dye up my hair cause the white thing appeared too much and gotta try so hard so my children and beloved husband won't neglect me.
But,for now,who cares?
I'M FIFTEEN!
It's amazing how she pur it into song.she mean it and everything she sang in that song refers to fifteen girls like me.how we believe everyone who tell us they love us.how we waited for a senior to wink at us and tell us lots of things.and how first kiss (despite the fact I never ever kissed) makes our head spin and dancing in our room.also,how we never know what the bigger things we can do rather than hooking someone from the football or basketball team.it is so real I almost cry!!
I'm enjoying my fifteen year.ooops sorry.still fourteen.waiting for 27th december to come and give me aging day.sooner or later I'll be one of those women who queue for an anti-aging product that cost a world.with lots of advantage blablabla. Will be busy going to beauty salon to dye up my hair cause the white thing appeared too much and gotta try so hard so my children and beloved husband won't neglect me.
But,for now,who cares?
I'M FIFTEEN!
PHYSICS
I want to go to science class. Though I should face my extremely bad but needed enemy, physics. Hate it cause it's so complicated!whether it's really hard or 'someone' turn it into hard one!
Tomorrow is my physics final exam.I'm really not in the mood to learn physics. With its linear motion and sin cos tan!ugh ugh ugh!it's just so so so so puh-lease!
That's why now I'm blogging instead of sticking my 15 y.o eyes to the paper and start to memorize it! Come on, why should this beba hard one? Maybe next year if I'm in science class, I hafta burn all of thios and drink it with water!
Acceleration = delta V / delta t
Ckckck.that's the most basic one for a grade 10 students.HERE.the greatest obstacles to my lovely life in the middle of money or love is PHYSICS!
To everyone who read this, I BEG you, pray for me to pass my PHYSICS.
Now let's study cause I don't want my mom to yell at my do re mi fa sol's score.
X_X
Tomorrow is my physics final exam.I'm really not in the mood to learn physics. With its linear motion and sin cos tan!ugh ugh ugh!it's just so so so so puh-lease!
That's why now I'm blogging instead of sticking my 15 y.o eyes to the paper and start to memorize it! Come on, why should this beba hard one? Maybe next year if I'm in science class, I hafta burn all of thios and drink it with water!
Acceleration = delta V / delta t
Ckckck.that's the most basic one for a grade 10 students.HERE.the greatest obstacles to my lovely life in the middle of money or love is PHYSICS!
To everyone who read this, I BEG you, pray for me to pass my PHYSICS.
Now let's study cause I don't want my mom to yell at my do re mi fa sol's score.
X_X
Friday, November 27, 2009
how to hook a hottie
i checked out my library's books stock and found one great novel. HOW TO HOOK A HOTTIE.by tina ferrarro. telling baout this ambitious girl Kate DelVecchio who got lots of money from her unwanted relationship that every grils had ever dreamt about. Being Brandon Callister, the school's hottie's gf! she got trapped with the date to the banquet that every girls had wanted for their life but not Kate. But,unexpectedly,this unwanted relationship turn into a very kaching-kaching business!together with Jason Darlymple or , shorter,Dal (her best boyfriend only friend not up to love canuse Dal's raken) they be a hooker for girls to cool and hot guys.Everything seems nice and Brandon's departure to a camp that put off the banquet date make it nocer. Although Lexie the rich spoilt nosy brat always interrogate Kate about it.
But what happen when suddenly Kate fall deeper into that business?What happen when Kate realize something about Dal?What happen when suddenly Brandon came home earlier and tell Kate the great news?
read it yourself!i won't tell ya!hohooho.you hafta read it!
you will love it. DEFINITELY.
lalu :)
hari sabut tanggal 21/11/09 ada baksos di suatu organisasi bernama tzu chi. mama ngajak kesana untuk melihat baksos besar itu kayak apa. selain poli gigi untuk anak sekolah mereka, ada operasi minor dan mata. bangun pagi-pagi langsung jalan,sampe sana amazed banget!sekolahnya itu ada liftnya!hebat kan?di sekolah itu banyak anak-anak rusun juga anak luar.bener-bener bagus deh~!pagi aja udah banyak anak sd olahraga kayak senam gitu pokoknya keren deh.habsi dateng langsung ke tempat operasi.heheheh.
Lalu bantu-bantu di tempat mata,jadi pendamping pasien. Bertemu banyak orang. Tanya siap atau tidak. Dan saat itu,bertemu seorang oma dari Palung di Poso. Namnya oma Rosa Mbatono. Dia sangat ceria. Gak ada takut samas sekali di matanya yang memang katarak. Saat aku tanya takut atau tidak dia jawab,"Takut hanya sama Tuhan. Anakku,ini 'oleh-oleh' buat kamu. Jauh di mata dekat di hati." Benar-benar menggugah hati.hahaha.lalu kita bercerita ria.hehhe
tapi yang -paling berkesan setelah itu adalah LALU dan teman-temannya. Mereka adalah apsien sumbing dari Palung, Poso. Lalu itu umur 13 tahun. Bocah lelaki yang senang tertawa!entah kenapa dia seperti adik sendiri. Senang tertawa seperti ujung mulutnya akan menyentuh kedua matanya :)
Ngobrol dengan mereka sangatlah menarik. Mereka bercerita tentang mereka, Palung dan banyak lagi. Waktu sedang main handphone sebentar,lalu mencondongkan bafdannya ke arah handphone. benar-benar seperti anak kecil yang sangat ingin tahu. aku terkikik dalam hati dan menggeser kursiku ke sebelahnhya,"Ini blackberry. Ini handphone di Jakarta. Bisa ke internet,juga bisa foto. Mau foto?" aku menawarkannya dengan takut-takut. Tapi dia sangat riang. dan kami berfoto.hahaha.aku ikut dengannya sampai dia di infus.dan setelah itu,aku harus pulang,sedih sih. malam berikutnya sebelum tidur ingat lalu.apa sudah sembuh apa sudah balik?dan lupa bilang bahwa nanti dia juga mesti jadi orang berguna.Tapi nasi sudah menjadi bubur.dan hanya bisa berharap bahwa nantinya dia akan sadar akan tujuan penting ini.hehehe.
blogging.again.
I made my blogger account.again.
Somehow,i don't know why, i forgot my email and pass i used for my blog account.really!
serious!i just can't find it in my brain.i wrote it already in a piece of paper.*oh!i can look and log in!* yeah right.but i lost the paper.tch.so,just me in a very complicated situation that drives me a lil bit crazy with i-will-forget-everything-every-second-someday sickness!tch.okay. anyway.i'm making my own one and i'm going to colour it with life and love and laughs!hee heee . nice to meet ya.
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