between fright and foolishness

Here I go again, trying to deny my feelings.

My smile explains it.

My eyes shine it.

My lips curve it.

My tongue deny it.

There's a problem in me. To be specific, a big question mark. Why do I deny it all the time?

Maybe the answer is only one.

Afraid of losing.

There's a theory implemented in my head that by the time I start saying, "I like you", the whole temple that I built and protects my insecurity will just...fall apart.

I want him to know this.

I want him to realize it.

I want him to help me.

Help me to feel secure enough to admit it...

Maybe this is too early but I feel good around him.

Can it be counted as 'like'?

If not, I am innocent.